Mindless

So here's my second posting. Not sure what to write exactly.. I do have a couple of thing to mention though..

I have this one friend who kind beats up on 'there' self (trying not to be gender specific) about getting stuff done. I guess it's kind of hard not to say to much with out giving away the identity. But anyway, they are really good at what they do, REALLY good, and i guess they just need some reassuring sometimes. But we all do, don't we? Like i'm going to be a father and i'm really not sure if and how i will cope. Not so much as a father directly, the outside factors like bills, work, one day we will HAVE to move from our place (rented), stuff like that. And i guess sometimes it would be nice to be told "it's going to be alright".

Another point i want to discuss with my maybe 2 readers. Why is it we don't seem to be allowed to be happy? I've had a few things in the past that would make my day, but lately it's just been getting my arse to Alaska to see this bus before it dissolves into the either.. But with a kid coming thats not going to happen anytime soon. I mean i had my chance to just head off, but i didn't and it eats me up so badly that i mightn't have that chance again.. And i'm not blaming anyone for this, i just wish things had worked out differently.. Just the thought of getting state side and seeing my friends, hanging out, having fun, seeing the bus, i can not think of anything that would make me happier, seriously.. I'm not sure how to explain it more specifically..

On another note.. thank goodness for the spell checker on here.. lol